AFTER BEING ALONE FOR 5 MINS

    AFTER THINKING ABOUT HOW MUCH I GIVE FROM MY OWN LIFE TIME , SOME TOOK YEARS NOT SECONDS NOR MINS OR EVEN HOURS, I FOUND MYSELF HAVE GIVEN SO MUCH AND HAVE TAKEN NOTHING I WAS OKAY WITH IT AT THE BEGGING , MAYBE BECAUSE OF HOW  SHY I WAS AND I WANTED TO HAVE FRIENDS OF GIRLS AND FEEL THAT I AM NORMAL AND WANT TO FEEL WANTED LIKE ANYBODY ELSE , BUT IT SEEMS IT ABSORBED MY POWER LATELY I NEED TO TAKE FOR SOME TIME ONLY AND IF I GAVE ANYTHING IN RETURN IT SHOULDN'T BE A MUST , AFTER YEARS OF CARELESS I FOUND OUT I HAVE WASTED MY OWN LIFE PLAYING GAMES , TALKING TO GIRLS , WASTING MONEY, I HAVE DONE NOTHING FOR MYSELF ,IT SEEMS THAT REGRET IS A PART OF GROWING UP BUT SEEMS THAT MY REGRET WILL ABSORB MY OWN LIFE ...